最近在书中、在综艺中遇到《心灵捕手》这部电影的次数有点多呢，可能是冥冥中微生物的指引让我遇到了这部电影，看了开头有些印象，不曾知道自己是否有看完，但还是1.5倍速的去看了。

印象深刻的一段内容，是教授在湖边对男主说的一段话。

Sean——So, if I asked you about art, you'dprobably give me the skinny on Every art book ever written.

Michelangelo. You know a lot about him:life's work, political aspirations, him and the Pope, sexual orientation, thewhole works, right?

But I bet you can't tell me what it smellslike in the Sistine Chapel. You've never actually stood there and looked up atthat beautiful ceiling…seeing that.

IfI ask you about women, you'll probably give me a syllabus of your personalfavorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can't tell me whatit feels like to wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy.

You're a tough kid. And I ask you about war,you'd probably, uh, throw Shakespeare at me, right? "Once more onto thebreach, dear friends…

But you've never been near one. You've neverheld your best friend's head in your lap…and watched him gasp his last breath,lookin' to you for help.

Iask you about love, you'll probably quote me a sonnet. But you've never lookedat a woman and been totally vulnerable……

Known someone that could level you with hereyes……feelin' like God put an angel on earth just for you……who could rescue youfrom the depths of hell……

And you wouldn't know what it's like tobe her angel……to have that love for her, be there forever…throughanything…through cancer.

And you wouldn't know about sleeping sittin'up in a hospital room for two months, holding her hand, because the doctorscould see in your eyes that the terms "visiting hours" don't apply toyou.

You don't know about real loss……'cause thatonly occurs when you love something more than you love yourself. I doubt you'veever dared to love anybody that much.

以上的言论类似于“想要知道梨子的味道，你必须要亲自尝一尝”，另外一层含义也是说狂妄的男主角只是在显摆自己的知识，但并没有人能够真正的懂他了解他，他也不想要人懂他了解他，因为他无比的脆弱，害怕得到的会失去，害怕自己不配得到。

我粗浅的理解为它是一部关于心灵救赎的电影吧，“that’snot your fault.”你是否有一个懂你的心灵伴侣呢，彼此知道自己的不完美，即使经过相处你甚至觉得对方很笨拙，可笑，但是我们能一起发现人生的不完美然后接纳它，过的随心，知道自己所想、所要、所爱。

三十岁的人生经历告诉我，如我芸芸众生好像很难知道自己要什么？自己的焦灼、身边朋友的焦灼，看到身边的人三十几了还在为感情的事情烦恼，为孩子的功课烦恼，这些都不是纯粹为了自己吧？或许为了物质富足生活的更好，或许为了满足自己感官的荷尔蒙刺激，又或许是其他功利性的原因。

好像自己对物质的追求不算高，想要的属于自己的东西也就停留在千元以内，令我能魂牵梦绕，流连忘返的东西还真的是没有找到呢。

关于这部电影感想中的未来，更加强烈的当属于要接纳不完美的自己，自卑抑或是嫉妒等很多的负面情绪很多时候恰恰是源自于对自己的不满意，总觉得我还可以让更多的人喜欢我，我还可以让更多人看到我，看到我的付出，看到我好像很努力的样子，获得认同，听过了再多次“孤独才是人生的常态“但也还是忍不住的想要去享受这些人前的快乐，越来越敏感的泪点很多时候觉得是不是病了，人前死不认错的其实是躯壳，从不曾自己能取悦自己。

文艺作品里面展示的是比生活中好的一面，没有男主的不费吹灰之力的天赋，也没有人花巨资去拯救你，能拯救你自己的也只有你自己，如毛毛虫，一边脱皮蜕变一边安慰自己说变成了蝴蝶世界就美了。

世界其实还是那个世界，并不是因为你是毛毛虫又或者是蝴蝶，而且由毛毛虫蜕变到蝴蝶也并非是毛毛虫的选择，而是活着就该使然……